I’m getting married in about 2 months exactly. I was thinking about all the things that men think about when it comes to being a good husband, lover, and eventually a father (let’s give that one some time! LOL). I’m moving to another country as well. So there’s going to be a lot of life changes. Anyways, I’ve been fearing what I would do if someone were to break in, or hurt my wife, or some such thing. I personally believe that a husband should do all he can to be physically fit and be able to defend his family. That’s why I’m working out a little bit more and I’m thinking about getting back into karate when I get to Ecuador. However, and this is a big however, in a way, all of that doesn’t matter. If it’s God’s will, and rarely I believe that it is so, but if it is, that something should happen to me or my wife, than there is absolutely nothing I can do. And on the other hand, 12 strong men can enter my house and I would be able to fend them off, if that’s God’s will. In short, I believe in providence.
Even though I believe in providence, I still find something lacking in that. I was doing a google search and came across a passage in the Bible. Here it is.
“We live within the shadow of the Almighty, sheltered by the God who is above all gods. This I declare, that He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; He is my God, and I am trusting Him. For He rescues you from every trap, and protects you from the fatal plague. He will shield you with his wings! They will shelter you. His faithful promises are your armour. Now you don’t need to be afraid of the dark any more, nor fear the dangers of the day; nor dread the plagues of darkness, nor disasters in the morning. Though a thousand fall at my side, though ten thousand are dying around me, the evil will not touch me. I will see how the wicked are punished but I will not share it. For Jehovah is my refuge! I choose the God above all gods to shelter me. How then can evil overtake me or any plague come near? For He orders his angels to protect you wherever you go. They will steady you with their hands to keep you from stumbling against the rocks on the trail. You can safely meet a lion or step on poisonous snakes, yes, even trample them beneath your feet! For the Lord says, ‘Because he loves Me, I will rescue him; I will make him great because he trusts in My name. When he calls on Me I will answer; I will be with him in trouble, and rescue him and honor him. I will satisfy him with a full life and give him My salvation.” ~ Psalm 91
Do I have that kind of faith? That kind of trust? That fact is, I don’t. I pray God strengthens my faith and resolve in Him. Ultimately, He loves Nancy more than I could ever love her, which brings me peace.
Worries and fears… Providencial Guidance
I’m getting married in about 2 months exactly. I was thinking about all the things that men think about when it comes to being a good husband, lover, and eventually a father (let’s give that one some time! LOL). I’m moving to another country as well. So there’s going to be a lot of life changes. Anyways, I’ve been fearing what I would do if someone were to break in, or hurt my wife, or some such thing. I personally believe that a husband should do all he can to be physically fit and be able to defend his family. That’s why I’m working out a little bit more and I’m thinking about getting back into karate when I get to Ecuador. However, and this is a big however, in a way, all of that doesn’t matter. If it’s God’s will, and rarely I believe that it is so, but if it is, that something should happen to me or my wife, than there is absolutely nothing I can do. And on the other hand, 12 strong men can enter my house and I would be able to fend them off, if that’s God’s will. In short, I believe in providence.
Even though I believe in providence, I still find something lacking in that. I was doing a google search and came across a passage in the Bible. Here it is.
Do I have that kind of faith? That kind of trust? That fact is, I don’t. I pray God strengthens my faith and resolve in Him. Ultimately, He loves Nancy more than I could ever love her, which brings me peace.